The voices in my head

I thought I was the only one who experienced having conversations in my mind. For many years, the voice in my head was usually accusatory, always quick to point out my flaws and mistakes, reminding me of past sinful experiences which I had confessed, and just making me feel inadequate and small.

For a long time I thought it was my conscience talking to me. But it just didn’t make any sense especially when this voice was always making me look bad even for things that were not my fault or for sins God had already forgiven me of. So what was that voice?

Someone cares

Tributes have continued to flow in for L’Wren, the girlfriend of musician Mick Jagger, who committed suicide recently. 

His spokesman said he was  "completely shocked and devastated by the news."

 Who wouldn’t be? I can imagine him say “why did she do this, didn’t she know I loved her”

Do you want to be wise?

I admit “Wisdom” can sound very confusing. What does it mean to be wise? How can we practically apply wisdom on a daily basis? 

When you believe in God surely that means you are wise, right? After all did the Bibe not say the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom?

Wrong! You can be a Christian but still lack wisdom. Yes, the fear of God is the beginning (not the end) of wisdom. But let's not confuse the knowledge of God with the fear of God. As long as we refuse to obey God's commands, then we don't fear Him even though we may know Him. And this is not wisdom.

Jezebel, the loving wife

The name Jezebel is associated with evil, wickedness and idolatery. Who can forget that this queen ordered the deaths of many God-fearing people in the days of King Ahab her husband. She was even after Prophet Elijah’s life.

But have you ever noticed that she was a loving wife as well? Unfortunately, her desire to please her husband and make him happy made her kill an innocent man. How did this happen?

In the book of 1Kings 21:1-16, we find King Ahab, Jezebel’s husband interested in a vineyard which belonged to a religious man called Naboth.

Even this one!

Some years ago I got a family member to teach me how to drive in Nigeria. On this particular day while I was behind the steering wheel with the windows down and my teacher beside me, I overheard an annoying remark. 

A young man walking close by said with contempt, “Every one wants to drive these days, even this one!”

You have to understand that in Nigeria, driving is not seen as a necessity, but a luxury. So when this young man made his remark, he was basically saying I was unworthy of such luxury. I almost mowed him down! How dare he! Thankfully, I ignored him.

Know thyself!

Did you ever have friends back then in school who never seemed to study but always passed their exams? 

I did. I preferred to study during the day, but my friends preferred night-time. 

My mistake during the day, was playing with these friends instead of studying. At night, I would be tired and fast asleep, while my friends studied.

Deception!

Have you ever been scammed? I have and to this day I still feel a tinge of pain when I remember the incident. It happened some years ago, when I was invited to do business with a pastor who had set up an investment company. 

I was initially sceptical but changed my mind when I heard about others who had benefited from the business. Besides he was a pastor, right?